I should go through said books and donate ones that I never got around to reading, outgrew, or just plain don’t want anymore. Or, it’s time I pass a book on for someone else to carry for awhile. I’ve done that before.
Same for my office and bath/beauty supplies. I tend to double up; I need to take better stock of what I have and use that up first. If I have anything unopened, I’ll donate those too.
Then: Trash
But… My biggest weakness? Paper and Trinkets and Free Stuff from Events. I have a whole self dedicated to business cards, mail, posters, news papers, random literature, magazines, and comics I haven’t sorted to their boxes yet. I collect things to read later. I grab stickers, bookmarks, cool napkins.
Occasionally I sort through my stack of papers to see what I need, and what I can convert digitally. Cool things go in the scrapbook. Everything else is recycled.
My closet is… a mess. I need to dedicate a weekend just going through everything.
Also: Upkeep
We use the Tody app to keep track of chores. On Sundays (the start of the week!) I set aside time for that task and do it, even if it’s for a few minutes. And when I Spring Clean about once-a-year, I do some serious decluttering.
Magpie-like, I have an acrylic shelf dedicated to rocks, more stickers, curios, meaningful whatevers, and what have you. I like having containers for everything, and everything has a place.
And: For Fun?
If I’m feeling really ambitious, I go through my Downloads folder on my computer. Clean out and backup Documents and Projects. Take a peek in the cloud storage, and the backup, and the backup’s backup. I’ve been particularly bad at this; I’ve had downloads hanging around from 5 years ago. On top of that, pruning your online accounts is a good idea. And your blog drafts…
It doesn’t count if the resources are right at the tip of my tongue.
But I think of these two groups I’m in, and how they are both failing me. Despite one’s best efforts, Redacted doesn’t want to bring their people into such an unwelcoming place. And the other, built from the ashes of something else, is faltering just like its predecessor because the lead lacks representation and different ways of seeing the world.
And a third, I fear, I would be deregulated to background noise because I frankly don’t have enough capital or experience.
How I, once again, just said "fuck it" and made my own space. It’s not giving up, yet it feels at odds with taking up space in these white spaces.
There is only one way to make your spaces diverse and welcoming enough for people of color to stick around.
It’s simple.
Make these spaces safe enough.
Have diverse admins, board members, friend groups.
Uplift the voices that aren’t yours.
Shoutout the places you know your PoC friends would be welcome. Boost their words. Highlight them. Don’t ignore them.
Listen. No platitudes, no explaining over, no compromising. No shuffling Everyone Else in a "QPOC" channel where anyone can shuffle in and make the space Unsafe.
Destroy it. Cast it into the fire. Stomp that shit out and don’t let it fester. Don’t be like Mastodon.
I see now, that I can be a lighthouse. If another Black person shows up, we can make eye contact and I can tell them they won’t be alone. I can point to where we can truly go. I’ve had decades of fly-in-milk experience, and I actually wouldn’t wish that on anyone despite being a vindictive monster. But still, I have to be there. And sometimes I am tired, because it is tiring.
Understand that I can’t always be there.
Understand that someone’ll be wary, even if I am there. Because I’ll be the only one.
Understand that there is a chance you’ll never see me again.
Quote Picard. Everyone loves to quote Picard.
But when I do reappear it will be demanding, aggressive: I am fucking here in spite of this. you will see me i am here too i deserve this too
And what else?
Educate yourself. Unpack your biases. Create the space you want to see.
Try. Keep trying. It’s ongoing, ever building. It is work to be anti-racist, and if you want to be safe enough, you will need to work for it.
And you still won’t be for everyone.
That’s all you can do.
…
But you want something more concrete, don’t you? Some stuff to read? Something to do?
me, mostly; as i grapple with double consciousness. express frustration. remind me of my resolve. what i can do. what i and others need, and provide it.
I don’t know where my draft went, so let’s take it from the top.
I like being in the corner. It could be a couch corner or a cozy chair in a corner. It goes without saying that a couch would be big enough for a warm blanket and a couple of pillows, but the chair will need to be the right size for that. It’ll also need those large plush armrests so I can drape my legs over them when I feel like curling up. Reclining feature isn’t mandatory, but would be nice for the rare times I’d want it.
So. Chair in corner. Next to it, a table wide enough for a drink, snacks, glasses, and book to place when I put it down for a nap. Other side, a floor lamp with variable dimness. I like the ones with two bulbs– one for the entire room pointing up, and a smaller one to point where you please.
Oop, we need a bluetooth speaker! Let’s stick it on the table, which is not far from the outlet. And the table’ll need a lil nook to charge phone/tablet/eReader.
A writing desk wouldn’t be far from the reading space. I don’t like writing on those lapdesk things (they’re handy, though!). Small enough to stand up my notebooks, have a laptop to the side when I’m not using it– and plenty of space to write! A small vase of pens. A small, dedicated lamp for this area, and an office chair that does the job. Or whatever chair; I’m not picky.
Tying it all together is a shaggy rug you can roll around on, and a coffee table for more table space. You can play Scrabble! And, conveniently, you can also lay on the floor and read with your hedgehog stuffies. As for the walls… eh, what the hell, throw some Christmas lights up there along with GDBee’s art. The rest of it can be covered in bookshelves.
Lastly, colors. I’m thinking dark colors for this area, earth tones. And to contrast, things like blankets and pillows would be some bright patterns or something. I just throw shit together in a deliberately kitsch way.
Last night I was curled up in the couch corner for some quality reading time. My nesting partner came in from the cold, did his thing, and settled down not far from me to do some studying of his own. He put on Lo-Fi HipHop Beats to Study To, because that is how we roll around here.
We just vibed, enjoying each other’s company while doing our own thing. One of us would make a sound (him grumbling over Theory, me losing my shit reading Wind and Truth). Depending on how engrossed we were, we’d even respond to said sounds.
Living together. Existing together.
Eventually I hunkered down for a nap as the sun set, giving him one last look before I disappeared into the blanket nest to continue reading till I fell asleep.
"Hey! I love you!"
(a few seconds as it registers) "Oh! Love you too."
I thought to myself, "Oh, this is probably how Princess Carolyn felt." Content, assured in love, and is able to… get right back to work. Because she knows and feels it so deeply it can be summed up with a smile and a "Mm." And when we’re done with whatever we’re doing, we’ll be there for each other.
OH MY GLOB HE EVEN HAS A GUITAR TOO
I was also given a handmade zine from him that articulated this feeling better than I could. I keep it in my headboard; it’s good to have something tangible to remind you of the sorta-intangible at times.
18 Million Rising hosted this class. Here is the recording: https://youtu.be/j20ku2kr6ty. There’s also a document they provided with resources and links, here.
Their focus is on Community Organizers.
> Since our activities are shared digitally to the internet, let’s consider the legacy of colonization embedded within the technologies, structures, and ways of thinking we use every day.
> We are using equipment and high speed internet not available in many indigenous communities. Even the technologies that are central to much of our work leaves significant carbon footprints, contributing to changing climates that disproportionately affect indigenous peoples worldwide.
> We invite you to join us in acknowledging this as well as our shared responsibility: to make good of this time and for each of us to consider our roles in decolonization and solidarity. adapted from a digital land acknowledgement by Adrienne Wong of spiderwebshow
Digital Threats
Marginalized communities have a long history of survelliance
Threats from
far-right
ICE and border agents
social media censorship
tracking (ebt, metrocards)
facial recognition
social security scams
phishing
data breaches
police surveillance
security camers
bad tech policies
Risk Accessment
what or who do I want to protect?
who do I want to protect it from? who are my adversaries?
how motivated and capable are they to get it?
what happens if they do get it?
what am I willing to do to prevent that?
Digital Security Is…
community defense
harm reduction
an ongoing practice
a balance between security and convenience
Accounts and Data
strong passwords
use strong password generators
length
complexity
keep it updated
avoid personal details
keep it unique! don’t reuse passwords
practical + memorable → passphrases
password managers
generates strong passwords + 2fa codes
secure password and sensitive data storage in cloud
autofill feature
*resources
security.org/how-secure-is-my-password/
bit.ly/18mr_pw (all caps)
haveibeenpwned.com
2 factor authentication (2fa)
extra layer of protection (beyond just username and password)
recommended to enable alerts for unusual logins
options
sms
email
authenticator apps
2fa keys
doxxing prevention and mitigation
revealing identifying information about a person online with malicious intent
Data can include Legal name, home address, workplace, contact info, photos, etc.
> phishing = tricking a person into taking an action or revealing sensitive data through fake emails, websites, or messages pretending to be from a reputable person or company.
> Malware – Malicious Software
Communications
Use Signal
end to end encrypted
use signal to share sensitive info
avoid using legal name + photo
settings
disappearing messages
admin controls in group chats
note to self
blur face tool
keep your phone number private with signal usernames
new feature: user names instead of phone numbers
Use alternatives
Gmail
ProtonMail
Tutanota
for Zoom, use Jitsi Meet
Protect your files- encrypt them
etherpad via Riseup.net
CryptPad
tresorit
Reproductive Health Apps Considerations
how the app stores and handles sensitive data
could sold to third party marketers
data could be shared with law enforcement
Web Browsing
Firefox, Tor, Brave, DuckDuckGo
Privacy Badger- blocks invisible trackers
Search Engine: DuckDuckGo
doesn’t use cookies
does not track and profile users
does not collect or store personal info
Google: myactivity.google.com to check
VPNs: Virtual Private Network
> a service that encrypts your internet traffic and disguises your online identity. this makes it more difficult for third parties to track your activities online and steal data.
TunnelBear
Mullvad VPN
Securing Your Devices
update your phone and computer operating systems and apps
face id and fingerprints are easily compromisable; turn off – esp during protests
set up automatic lock on devices
turn off location services when possible
DIGITAL SECURITY FOR IRL PROTESTS + EVENTS
strong passwords for phones, not biometrics
use signal to organize action and during attendance
leave location trackers at home (smart watches, air tags, etc) + turn off bluetooth, wifi, gps
(Editor’s Note: If there is no image here, it’s because I played around with Roomtodo for far too long before wandering off…)
Did I find anything cool lately? Let’s see…
Found a new blog! I’ll link to it twice.
And if you didn’t know about this handy site already, there is https://archive.ph/! I’ll be linking that too.
Oh, hey, let’s talk about Proton! It’s another company I yeeted into the trash! They were on thin ice when they started doing their own LLM-Not-AI-Actually nonsense, then a cryptocurrency wallet, and then, just in time for me to intercept my annual subscription renewal…
Hugely disappointing to see Andy Yen (Proton CEO) tout the Republican Party as the ones “standing up for the little guys” 🤢@jonah@neat.computer
So there’s another OOPS, in my opinion: don’t tie your entire workload into the same suite. It is convenient (just ask Google), but then I found myself having to scramble for five different alternatives at the same time. If I used their Docs feature (?) in any capacity, it would’ve been six.
But, you know, I collect links and programs like some sort of digital hedgehog-dragon, because it’s always great to have options. On top of manual backups, I can export and import most things. I’ve uninstalled everything Proton-related and in the process of spinning down the Mail portion.
And in case someone wants to know, since they’re also looking. I’ve currently settled on
Self-hosted Email with Stalw.art if I ever get *that* fed up.
And nah, what I went with certainly aren’t endorsements. And I could be terribly, terribly wrong about any of these.
OK, gwan, git. Read about LiveJournal and if you’re old enough and been there, reminisce with me. And don’t judge me for going back to Google Calendar.
I have fond memories of it. I first heard about it in high school through a friend of mine. Unfortunately, I wasn’t able to obtain one of their coveted invites– an email and code that a current user had to send you. Until they opened registration for everyone, I made do with other platforms like BlogDrive.
Nothing gold can stay.
Livejournal won me over with all the features they had tha BD lacked, like communities and privacy options for each of your entries. And I could finally read the entries my HS bestie was posting behind the "Friend Locked" posts– "Flocked," for short. There was still a social aspect, but I chose LiveJournal over MySpace. I liked poetry and writing and I felt it was a better fit.
A few of my friends migrated with me from BlogDrive, but I made new friends there as well. I have really fond memories of the communities I was a part of. Especially the fanfiction and other fandom communities. Some of my longest Internet friends I have met through mutual interests or Friending Meme sprees. I’ve bonded with offline friends as well, who signed up or already had accounts, and our relationships grew closer because of it. We grew older together, read about each other’s lives and milestones. A few people on my Ride-or-Die list came from LJ and we are still thick as thieves!
I had my favorites, and I mostly hung around anything with video game news, yuri, random yousendit links (I discovered a lot of cool music this way), snark, and DRAMA comms. And we lived through some LiveJournal DRAMA. As usual, you have the occasional spat between two more more users, which would be documented in a community for its members to poke fun and laugh at. And then there was the communities created to make fun of the members of said community ("meta"). And then were were communities dedicated to just sniping at each other. And then there were the communities that would document "dumb stuff," whatever that was.
While the interpersonal clashes did happen, it was different from what we’re gonna get into next: LJ Capital-D DRAMA. This Drama impacted the entire website– and beyond.
Nipplegate was the first major upheaval under SixApart’s purview: somehow, people with breasts feeding their children was in violation of their rules in the year of our lord 2006. Nevermind tho, though– Strikethrough ’07 was where things really began heating up. Around 500 communities and journals were suspended with no warning– and no recourse. If you had interests listed in the bio that were sexually explicit– especially illegal sexual ones– your account was axed. Unfortunately, it was a baby-with-bathwater situation.
The goal here was to get journals with profiles that listed “child rape” or “pedophilia” as their interests to know they’re not welcome on LJ. Naturally, the list of sites submitted by groups like WFI likely included some friendly fire, including legitimate communities for abuse survivors, or, yes fandom. And we accidentally suspended some of those communities, but their data is not gone and will be restored once we get our shit together. Anil Dash, Meta Filter
For most of us in fandom, we did note that the disproportionate amount of suspended accounts were… gay. Very gay. Russia Would Totally Censor This gay. Suspicious, to say the least. And this happened again in the same year, this time under the moniker Boldthrough– as usernames were in bold instead of "struck out," like that would fool anyone.
Now, migrations or backups to other services was nothing new– whenever LJ servers went down, everyone panicked and made spare accounts or updated their archives. But after Boldthrough, it was different. Most of us saw the writing on the wall with its new Russian ownership, especially when it came to journalism and LGBTQ topics. Additionally, more people were fed up with having their transformative works disappear at the whim of moral guardians.
So we began to strike out (groan) for greener pastures.
Between LJ’s fuckups and FF.Net nuking NC-17 fic, the collective fandom-in-general had had enough. And that is how we got Archive of Our Own! It’s a more positive impact on the Internet compared to, say, Encyclopedia Dramatica (tldr edgelord wikipedia). There were also the software forks of the pre-Russian Livejournal code.
There was GreatestJournal— with it’s 1000 icon limit, a constant supply of pop culture snarkiness and role-playing hubs– until it quietly went offline.
Fandom Wank’s home of JournalFen held on for longer, but it grew dark in 2015.
And then you have Dreamwidth— founded in 2009 by former LJ employees with a commitment to their principles: Transparency, Freedom, Respect, and No Ads. To this day it is still highly recommended and thriving, especially compared to DJ and IJ. At least, it is much more widely known.
I’ve now owned a Dreamwidth account for the majority of my online presence. Even when I was mainly blogging on WordPress, I’d login to read other’s lives, works, and everything in between. Now, if I posted– that was another matter. But the older I become, the more I rely on journaling my life to remember the good and bad things (or just what I ate for dinner that one day last week). And I’ve become better at that habit.
But like most things on the Internet, old school Livejournal was something else. I’ve been chasing that high ever since.
Comfortable in my skin
Cozy with who I am
Comfortable in my skin
Cozy, cozy
Comfortable in my skin
Feet up above your sins
I love myself, goddamn
Cozy, cozy Beyonce’s “Cozy”
My Daily Motivator Calendar Thingy suggests that I "make a grown-up version" of a cozy calm-down corner (usually at day care centers and preschools that can help toddlers self-regulate). They list things like "books, plush tows, pillows, and a soft rug." And as that banger of an album is now stuck in my head, we can have the desire for personhood as a Black and Queer person.
A literal corner can help. After all, I love holding up the wall. It helps me reaccess and observe for awhile. Something soft. Somewhere quiet. It’d probably be like a cozy reading nook, with dim lighting and earth tones. Cranes in the Sky playing.