From the green world


Floating beyond collapsed stars


I glide for many, many years


For so long, time stopped for me.


And when I arrived


In another galaxy


A gate waited for me


In welcome:


“Salutations. Rest here


and you may see old friends.”


After the shaky landing I walked


Their corridors,


Searching for the ones I’ve lost,


The echos of those I left behind.


These people were near my age.


I’ve crossed doors and platforms and storage and


No one else.


Except


One voice


Stopped me mid-step


So I turned and saw


Someone


(her)


Long dead, to me.


An android, to me.


This one did not know who I was,


Just where I’ve been


With a system update.


And so, I spoke our password


And her camera-eyes blinked in learned recognition.

And still, I dream.
She told me of the man
Haunted by floating steps and
Math, lights down for one year.
How he exclaimed her to be
A Victim
But her age knew better;
You’ve heard this before.
We jotted down the spell and
Cast
Into depths, turned shallow.
Tweak your methods-
There’s no tradition, there.
And as I dream
I remember
The broken pencils,
Traded for ink and gossip.

Jan. 28th

I have no compass… this feels South;
It’s towards the clouds threatening thunder
And toward home.


A temporary escape outside– enough time
to remember to confess
as the strings soar.


If there were stars, I would count them
But the raindrops will have to do.
Either way, I just keep breathing.


Counting down to my place of return:
Where I am safe and whole
Nursing the poet, so terrified
Yet still compelled to sing
After all this time.

When every melody 
Fails 
And you’re so far into the past 
That everything is dark 
Remember:
You’re the hero here. 
This can’t be the end;
You shouldn’t be dying in the next room
And you shouldn’t feel alone. 

“But if you are, dear Harriet…”

Keep crying out into the darkness. 
Even if no one reaches you. 
Fall apart, still,
If no one arrives to put you back together. 
If you have to– 
If the 9th prayer never comes, 
Be strong this one last time 
And save yourself.
Restart the universe if you have to. 




NOTE: If you’re a fan of Earthbound/MOTHER 2, a bit of this may sound familiar. I also thought of a YouTube meme (and a bonus song).

03.


It was almost too much grief 
For one body to handle. 
But this small one manages 
Through pain of memory. 


12.


We won’t be
The same after this:
Through quiet streets
And worried speech
The world drifts to dreams.
What will I wake up to tonight?
Who will be left to greet my yawns?

This spacesuit-layer-thin
Is all that separates me from
My idle thoughts in the dark–
But I dream, propelled,
A shooting star
Away from everything.
Landside, I melt into my thoughts
Unrecognizable
As unknown quasars,
Unstable as three-star systems.
Gravity should
Discover and pull me free.