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A collection of 16 issues

4th

Usually I'm all about the bare minimum of setting things on fire (or fireworks), getting drunk, and throwing some beef bullshit on a grill. I was never one for all that gross patriotism with the flags and USA is Gr8 stuff, anyway. But I can't bring

TBT: Adding a Title.

This was a draft for 2020-01-01 that I never posted. I stayed in this year. After work, I was so tired. I stayed home with my nesting partners, played video games, and watched more Jojo's Bizarre Adventure. I drank a mimosa with a lover once the clock struck

"Identity Diffusion. The eternal dilemma."

It's weird to wake up not knowing who you are. You do all this stuff, you enjoy these things, yet you still wake up wondering what your "thing" is. And in a strange show of wanting to feel included, you leave hints that you'd

A Playlist While I Am Depressed

I haven't been talking much. Or doing much of anything, really, beyond existing and feeling pretty bad ab-- Sorry. "Pretty bad" is a terrible understatement. I'm depressed. Capital D Depressed. Alanis Morissette, "Tapes" All these tapes in my head swirl around Keeping

To Be Included Somewhere (1 take)

This spacesuit-layer-thin Is all that separates me from My idle thoughts in the dark-- But I dream, propelled, A shooting star Away from everything. Landside, I melt into my thoughts Unrecognizable As unknown quasars, Unstable as three-star systems. Gravity should Discover and pull me free.

"I'll be dead and no longer around."

So I am 34 years old, now. And ever since No Doubt's Return of Saturn album was released, I played "Six Feet Under" at least once on my birthday. I thought I was going to be unbearably sad today. That I was going to pass today

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