Letting Another Thing Go.

It just dawned on me that I may be doing too much.

Between community work x2, a webring, this blog, portfolio, little projects just to tinker with, classes I should be taking, the day job, the socializing/connecting with people, the dating, the required downtime, the vtubing I haven't been doing, reading, something or other I've probably forgotten, and the communities I want to rescue because they are safer spaces I need or just community I miss dearly, project note management and just one more tiny project and I'll get it out of my system...

That is a lot.

And I can't do it all.

I've had to do a shift in priorities.

I'm particularly upset with how Pink Pistols went down, and I can't help but compare us. They have the brand rec, the manpower, and the people interested. I'm floundering and constantly thinking "gee, wish I had help." So that was my cue to ask for help, but may have to let it go.

I can't let go, either.

I was so driven. Now I feel so deflated. But sometimes you can't give something the attention it deserves. And I gotta focus on one thing at a time.

...I just don't have the energy to start my own self-defense group, especially on my own. And I fucking I hate that, because it feels like giving up, and I have a grudge.

"Reality is often disappointing." (some purple mean dude)

My original parameters were "work with what is already established," which is why I went with Pink Pistols to begin with. I'll just be reverting back to that. What's already around should do just fine.

So.

Webring.

Then. Portfolio.

In between? Relax, finish some games on Twitch.

Maybe even hermit a little.

The rest will be in time.